Zombie-Girl

No longer feeling empty
My insides rotting flesh
Not knowing who I am
The heart a moldy mess

No feelings or emotions
I feel so dead inside
My brain a mushy blob
My body not alive

Don't they notice the death-walker
That roams in their presence?
Do they look into my eyes?
These two dark holes,
So deep it pierces
through my cold soul.

Does it not matter,
wether I'm dead or alive?
If my body still pretends
To live and be alive.

Fooled

Unaware, frightened and alone

I thought I knew these people

The ones who sent me advice

Who told me that I'm capable

One day painting the way

To show who they are inside

Leaving me in pain

No love for me in sight

Blinded by stupidity

For God knows how long

I thought I knew these people

How could I be so wrong?

Acceptance

To be accepted is all I need.

Looking for approval,

I strive to please.

Not good enough for friends

embarrassing, and shy.

I talk too much,

I don't do anything right.

Time after time,

I try suiting your life

Always ending in failure,

Just another strife.

Your high Expectations,

Are changing into pain,

My heart is weighing heavy

Cannot exit the game,

Around and around

In circles I go.

Pointing, correcting,

I didn't even know.

Worrying and hoping

If everything is right.

But yet again

We bicker and fight.

Forever Strayed

A moment standing in silence

a voice unable to speak

a mind of powerful emotions

a feeling that's obsolete.

A cup that's halfway empty

and hate that's halfway full

a cry that's never ending

a dream that's painfully cruel.

A destined search for happiness

covering the blackened skies

a shadow that keeps on fading

and ears that hear no lies.

Beautiful Earth

The morning sun begins shining down,

on flowers in the grass that embraces the ground.

Creatures emerge to explore the mystery of earth.

The colors brighten up showing you its worth.

Come out radiant sun, do not go away,

your debut has just begun to enliven this day.

The butterflies are dancing high in the sky,

you cannot leave now with no answer to why.

How would you explain to the animals below,

that it will soon be your time to go?

Shadows are surfacing and the creatures appear.

The owl begins to screech and the mice run in fear.

Crickets begin singing a rhythmic song

The sky is darkening it wont be long.

Plain Black Bird

As the plain black bird flies

he dreams he is an eagle

soaring high over his kingdom

and when he lands, he sits

with his chest held high, full of pride

he stretches out his gigantic wings

with beautiful colors that range from brown to black

but he awakens with the disappointment

that he is only a black bird

he is not the king of the sky

his feathers arent as beautiful

and he may not be big and powerful

but a black bird is who he is

and he wont ever be an eagle

he begins to see the beauty within him

and loves himself despite it all.

The house on a hill

The house on the hill looks down upon the lake

Sitting and thinking his family is late

Night after night they bundle inside

But a night like this, they wont be in sight

The house sits in wonder, all sad and gloomy

The heater wont be on tonight, to keep him warm and cozy

His family won't be stirring, getting snuggled in bed,

And Daddy wont be reading while the kids rest their heads.

Confessions

Pacing back and forth

He knows it's right

Afraid of hurt

Afraid of the sight.

The words are churning

His stomach alive

Spinning, piercing

And storming inside.

Patiently she waits

Not expecting what's to come

Sitting and staring

Into the eyes of "the one".

Seeing his emotions

Worried for his sake

How can she make him happy?

What would it take?

She only wants his smile

Gleaming through his lips

Like the days when he held her

His hands on her hips.

Serious thoughts

Racing through his mind

Not enough words

Not enough time.

His mouth begins to move

But nothing spews out

She tries to read his lips

Trying to figure it out.

He wants to escape

To skip past the pain

The clouds rolling in

Its beginning to rain.

He looks in her eyes

And let's it overflow

"I don't love you" he said

"and I think you should know"

Madness

Stolen are my choices,

my soul, my dignity

They've taken all rights

my freedom, my integrity.

Unable to escape,

unable to breath.

Confined, immobilized,

mortality depleting.

The others say I'm hopeless,

demented and mad.

Turning a blind eye,

they do not understand.

This society is real!

It’s real you see!

Ive seen them, Ive touched them

Ive heard their speech.

Placing chaos in my mind

and forcing me to scream.

I cannot get away,

I cannot sleep.

In my dreams they are hiding

underneath those lies

haunting me, taunting me,

they hypnotize.

“Leave me alone” I cry,

“get out of my sight!”

Rocking back and forth,

my eyes shut tight.

I try to shake them,

I try to hide

but you cannot get away

from whats trapped inside.

Failure

My days are full of sadness

nights are filled with tears

skies are full of clouds

dreams are filled with fears

Surrounding me is darkness

and I can’t see

the atmosphere is thick

I can’t even breathe

I try to hold my head up

but gravity pulls it back down

I'm forcing a smile

but overtaken by a frown

trying to laugh

while holding back tears

I try to think positive

there’s too many fears

failing everyone in life

except for only two

praying to God every night

that I wont fail them too

I want to be strong

I don’t want to be weak

so I could be their rock

when they are in need

Caged

He is all smiles

while I am enslaved

reaching out for a hand

in a cold and dark cage

starring at the chains

so perfect around my wrists

how does he feel

knowing he placed me in this

screaming with insults

yelling I am to blame

and this is why

i am so bruised with pain

I scurry to the corner

hiding from the light

anticipating his whip

hits the skin just right

I scream out in misery

I hiss at his feet

striking me once more

my body hits concrete

The climb

the mountain stands tall

awaiting my quest

harder than expected

but I will try my best

the wind pushes me closer

so I struggle to pull away

with visions of failure

and falling astray

he begins to draw me near

with wonders of success

and dreams that one day

I'll become a princess

So I begin to climb

seems easy at first

So I start to run

with an ambitious thirst

hasty of actions

careless of the future

crazily running

through life, so unsure

the pain begins to strike

deep in my thighs

struggling to stay upright

my legs paralyzed

falling so hard

the wounds so deep

I lay there in pain

unable to speak

My first love

The beauty in writing

sends me a calming tone

hiding my emotions

I write them down in stone

pouring out my heart

and locking them away

Its pleasing to know

its where they will forever stay

My emotions are strong

too strong to hold within

I begin to feel agony

without my notebook and pen

like a pack of beasts

tearing at my mind

it rips at my thoughts

and pierces from behind.

Compelled to write

I'm drawn to my pen

drawing dreams and fantasies

that fills a mischievous grin

Thirsting for the words

yearning for the sensation

it flows through my veins

like a tranquil vaccination.

Loving a Stranger

Looking into a stranger's eyes

I'm falling

Its a blissful paradise

His soul is beautiful

His heart is pure

This is love that I'm feeling

I know

I'm so sure

The moonlight glows

on his handsome face

He holds me tight

as my heart

starts to race

Who is this stranger

that I love so dear

when just his touch

makes life seem so clear

I've found heaven

in his presence

Serenity in his kiss

I've never felt anything

more beautiful than this

Mystery Man

What does he see when he looks into my eyes?

And when he smiles what’s on his mind?

I try to figure him out but I don’t understand

He’s a mystery that I can’t quite withstand

And if he took me inside, what would I see?

That wonderful day when his arms were around me?

Or would I see happiness, sadness or fear?

If I saw his thoughts, would he then be more clear?

I’m trusting him in every way

But scared he won’t understand

Part of me is pushing him away

The others in a fairytale land.

I lift my pen...

I write

My pen touches the paper, and the tears flow down my cheeks. I am an orphan searching for love. No family to run to or friends who care. I am alone against the world

I lift my pen...

Again my pen touches the paper, I am dancing in a ballroom with a beautiful, pink gown. Around, around I turn with my love in my arms. The music is slow and the ligths are dim.

I lift my pen...

Once more my pen touches the paper, and the wind sweeps me off my feet. I am a daredevil, ready to challenge life. I have no rules and I live for adrenaline.

I lift my pen...

Guess Who

The wind blows and I dance

back and forth, back and forth

My arms wave to everyone who sees

My body slender and my skin a shade of brown

But not as smooth as a babys bottom

Water is my best friend but wind is my enemy

Fire hurts but cant pull me down

I am a redwood tree

I am wide and sturdy

tall enough to reach the heavens

Sometimes I wear a white coat

but in the spring time I begin to cry

The tears flow down my body

but the tears bring out the beauty

in my coat of many colors

The sun shines upon me and I Glow

I am the Alpine Mountains

I am not beautiful

Nor am I hideous

But I am surrounded by many colors

oranges, yellows and reds

I imagine I am one of them

But I am just a rock

in the middle of a field of marigolds

When I'm white I'm scattered

but when I'm black I'm big

Sometimes I cry but at the right time

You're blind when I come down to the ground

but I will soon go back home

You can't touch me but you can feel me

I am a cloud

Emilie Part I

Her gentle hand upon my face,

The twinkle in her eye,

The smile that can brighten any bad day,

But can bring you down with just a cry

Curiosity is her thing

But it shows me how much she's learning

She's demanding when she wants

There's so much that she's yearning

I'm the greatest singer in her world

And she's my biggest fan

The little things that I do

She makes them seem so grand

When the night comes to an end

And she curls up in my arms

I'm relieved knowing she's safe,

Protected from the worlds harm

My Tiger

The smell of green grass and flowers blooming

take me away into a dreamlike state.

Every step I take brings me

closer and closer to my destination.

The wind blows gently through my long brown hair

and the sun dances along my skin.

While listening to the beautiful blue birds sing,

I get distracted by the roar of a tiger.

I glance to the left where I see an orange and black figure

when I realize it was he who had called upon me.

As we walk toward each other,

something connects between the two of us.

There's a warm feeling inside,

a feeling that makes me feel like

I don't have to worry about anything anymore.

This secure feeling tells me that

this tiger is not my enemy, but my friend.

We sit next to each other in the cool green grass,

and gaze into the pink and purple sunset.

As I look next to me, the tiger has disappeared.

But I know, I will always have him in my heart.

Surprises

Being with you,

is always a surprise,

what should I expect,

when I look into your eyes?

Tonight we will fly together,

deep in the stars,

play tag on the moon,

and I'll fall asleep in your arms.

In the morning when I wake,

it's a new adventure,

what will we do today?

I'm never really sure.

Running along the beach,

and playing in the waves,

holding each other tight,

and trying to behave.

Being with you

is always a surprise,

I never know what to expect,

when you look into my eyes.

Unwanted

As I walk away,

from the unwanted,

I shall not cry,

and I shall not flaunt it.

But the tears inside,

are beginning to show,

and the more I hide them,

the more they glow.

As the memories pass,

through my mind,

the feelings I have for you,

grow inside.

I know we can't be together,

and I have to set you free,

but from all this time,

you still mean a lot to me.

Hidden

It seems like I'm standing

Behind a brick wall

anything I do

You don't notice at all

Even when I scream as loud as I can

You still don't realize

I'm your biggest fan.

As hard as I try

You'll never notice

So when I leave

Just remember this:

When you realize I'm gone

and miss my touch

Please don't cry

for my tears were twice as much.

Am I Invisible?

Why don't you open your eyes and see

how much you really mean to me.

Everyday I can't do

anything, but think of you.

Do you not love me?

Is this true?

Do you not see this girl

trying to be the center of your world?

Or is this all a dream?

Is it how it seems?

Can you not hear me calling your name?

Or is this all a mind game?

All I want is you! Cant you see?

It's true!

If you want me, come get me.

But if you don't, why are you still here?