Puzzled

Running through a corn maze
With confusion invading my mind
Each direction providing new options
As the exit laughs at me, blind.

My choices are unlimited
But what’s right is the hidden prize.
It’s sending me in the wrong directions
Pushing me away from its disguise.

Running faster and faster
I search for an escape
Deceiving me again
Secretly changing its shape

Speed no longer matters here
I could run forever in a sprint
But precision requires full attention
So I widen my eyes without a squint

Motivation gathers inside me
Have I located the right path?
Hastily I run towards it
Without considering the math.

Missing the exit completely
I fall upon the ground
Preparing to give up this fight
For this exit cannot be found.

Jenasis ♥

Disaster

I wish life could be easy
and we were safe and sound
I wish you could see it too
our future crashing down

You're blind to this reality
and stuck inside the past
I've always tried to warn you
This chaos is coming fast.

I try so hard to tell you 
but you always pushed me away
I am the reason for it,
I am the one to blame.

I've been left to fight a battle
I can't fight on my own
This battle is way too big for me,
I'm too weak to fight it alone.

Jenasis ♥

Against the Odds

Place your hand in mine
These people aren't our friends
This world is against us
Hoping for our love to bend.

Saying marriage isn't forever,
That our life is only a facade
But knowing you and knowing me
We can fight against the odds.

Standing firmly side by side,
Anticipating storms,
Through rain, fire, lightning, ice,
We're still standing strong.

The world may tell us lies
For we created what they did not intend
But I promise you with all my soul
We'll make it 'til the very end.

Close your eyes, turn away
They blind us with their deceit
Cover your ears, don't listen to
The calumniation that they speak

Have confidence in our love, my love
For it will never fade
Look deep into my eyes,
And remember that first day.

Where our love was blossoming
Pouring out our hearts
A river of everlasting love
To never split apart.

Hold it deep inside that place
Where you always search to find.
When the world's trying hard to grasp
And distort your mind.


Jenasis ♥

Broken

Concealing shattered pieces

I disguise my pain into laughter.
Those words I wish I could speak
Heavily weighing on my shoulders.

Dreary days combine freely.
I am bound here, my getaway.
The shadows crawling on the floors
Offering a place for me to hide away.

Your eyes looking deep inside me
So deep, I am trembling.
But you can't see it, can you?
The darkness so blinding.

Often dreaming about a place,
Where my fears have evaporated.
Loving joyfully with every piece of
The pieces that have molded.

Jenasis ♥

Anxiety Attack

Anxiety rushing through me
Overflowing through my veins.
Shaking through my hands
Quivering through my legs

My heart intensely pounding
Thundering through my ears
Deeply reverberating
Bestowing unknown fears.

My breathing deeply quickens
and terrors arise around.
Horrific thoughts consume me
On the brink of melting down.

Testing my strength and weakness
Pushing me towards the edge
Not knowing of overcoming
Or slipping off the ledge.

Jenasis <3

Quiescence

Escaping the world,
You lay your head.
a pillow of soft satisfaction.

As your eyes are closing,
concealing your life,
the mind in anticipation.

This world you're excluding,
overriding the grim,
a cloud, so gray and somber.

Expecting the fear
to diminish and fade
from this momentarily brief slumber.

Feeling the dreams
and glimpsing its beauty,
a fantasy you wish you were bound to.

But the body is weakening,
paralysis is near
and the nightmares begin to consume you.

Jenasis <3

Zombie-Girl

No longer feeling empty
My insides rotting flesh
Not knowing who I am
The heart a moldy mess

No feelings or emotions
I feel so dead inside
My brain a mushy blob
My body not alive

Don't they notice the death-walker
That roams in their presence?
Do they look into my eyes?
These two dark holes,
So deep it pierces
through my cold soul.

Does it not matter,
wether I'm dead or alive?
If my body still pretends
To live and be alive.

Fooled

Unaware, frightened and alone

I thought I knew these people

The ones who sent me advice

Who told me that I'm capable

One day painting the way

To show who they are inside

Leaving me in pain

No love for me in sight

Blinded by stupidity

For God knows how long

I thought I knew these people

How could I be so wrong?

Acceptance

To be accepted is all I need.

Looking for approval,

I strive to please.

Not good enough for friends

embarrassing, and shy.

I talk too much,

I don't do anything right.

Time after time,

I try suiting your life

Always ending in failure,

Just another strife.

Your high Expectations,

Are changing into pain,

My heart is weighing heavy

Cannot exit the game,

Around and around

In circles I go.

Pointing, correcting,

I didn't even know.

Worrying and hoping

If everything is right.

But yet again

We bicker and fight.

Forever Strayed

A moment standing in silence

a voice unable to speak

a mind of powerful emotions

a feeling that's obsolete.

A cup that's halfway empty

and hate that's halfway full

a cry that's never ending

a dream that's painfully cruel.

A destined search for happiness

covering the blackened skies

a shadow that keeps on fading

and ears that hear no lies.